This new day did bring new energy and it also brought with it a fresh new word from God.
In the morning, during my quiet time, I read the first chapter of Calm My Anxious Heart. (Why I am reading this book will be a topic of a future post as the Lord continues to work in me.)
I definitely have a Type A personality. I struggle with the need for control. I know, I don’t have much control of anything in my life, none of us do! As I grow older I am learning this more and more. I like structure and find comfort in a clear plan. As I manage my home, raise my children and handle relationships there are some things I can and should control. There are many more things I should leave to God and rest in the assurance that “God…is the blessed controller of all things, the King over all kings and the master of all masters” (1 Timothy 6:15). I pray for the wisdom to know the difference. The author quotes a story from another book, Streams in the Desert:
“I need oil,” said an ancient monk, so he planted an olive sapling, “Lord,” he prayed, “it needs rain that its tender roots may drink and swell. Send gentle showers.” And the Lord sent gentle showers. “Lord,” prayed the monk, “my tree needs sun. Send sun, I pray thee.” And the sun shone, gilding the dripping clouds. “Now frost, my Lord, to brace its tissues,” cried the monk. And behold, the little tree stood sparkling with frost, but at evening it died.
Then the monk sought the cell of a brother monk, and told his strange experience. “I, too, planted a little tree,” he said, “and see! It thrives well. But I entrust my tree to its God. He who made it knows better what it needs than a man like me. I laid no condition I fixed not ways or means. ‘Lord, send what it needs,’ I prayed, ‘ storm or sunshine, wind, rain, or frost. Thou hast made it and Thou dost know.”
How crazy to worry or be anxious about anything! How silly to feel that the Lord needs my help in anything! How encouraging to know that my life and all of the circumstances in it are controlled by the King and Creator of the Universe! As I go about this day and deal with the unexpected, the inconvenient and the interruptions I rest in the knowledge that God holds the plan I set this morning in His hand. I decide today not to fret over what does not get completed. I will especially not worry about the kids, the homeschool, whether or not we are behind, character issues we are dealing with, etc!
I will instead be faithful to the call today, and remind myself that: God has made me, my life and all of my affairs, and God does know.