One of my favorite daily rituals is writing in my journal. Writing in it helps me unravel all the thoughts and feelings that would otherwise consume my mind.
Recently I have been looking back at some old memories and have chosen to reflect on some negative ones. I’m considering my losses and the times I’ve been hurt by others. The big ones, the ones I have let mark me the most. This time, as I write about these in my journal and really take time to flesh them out and put them on paper, I am assigning a new meaning to them and intentionally using them to empower and not debilitate me:
I have decided to bring them out into the light.
As in the theme of my last post, anything we leave in the dark will have power over us. We all have bad memories, painful memories. Even if they are not prominent in our mind, they are there and affect the way we look at our daily experience and even ourselves. Each one leaves a mark, changing who we are. I want to own this a bit more. I want to determine what kind of mark these memories leave and intentionally choose the meaning they will have. So I am looking back and making that choice.
I am not letting these bad experiences define me anymore.
I am not my bad experiences or my failures. I am not even defined by the things people have done to me or said to me. Writing about these have helped me put more distance between me and my experiences. After writing about these with intention I look at them more as events that happened to me that are packed with lessons to glean from.
I can now use the lessons and the experience itself to serve others.
Every time we go through something, good or bad, we have deeper insight into things. We can understand others who are going through them now in a more real and intimate way, making us better able to love them through it. I am choosing to assign this new meaning to the negative things that have happened to me. I am more grateful for the tools it gives me to serve in a deeper way.
Writing in my journal is my favorite daily ritual. It gives me tools to have more control of my feelings today and to use my past experiences to empower my future.
Have you ever kept a journal? What benefits does it give you?